John and Toni and family. My heart breaks for all of you. I know what you are going thru as I go thru it every day. Don't think of the if only's because it is wasted time. Enjoy your time with his children knowing he lives on thru them. Everyone grieves differently. So don't worry about someone else not dealing with it. They can't help but deal with it. Remember the good times with John and the way he loved to joke and laugh. His laughter will live on in our memories of his zany antics. Love Rhonda